Well this week didn't kick off exactly as I had planned. Lane was not feeling to good this morning and he was tugging at his left ear. I grabbed the Motrin, ear drops, and left over Amoxicillin from the where he just finished a round of it last week and dosed him up. By the time we got to school he seemed to be feeling fine but I still took him to the doctor just to make sure. My gut was right...another ear infection....this time double. About 3 weeks since the last one. Little man earned himself a referral to ENT. I vaguely remember the whole tubes in the ear thing from when my brother had them. For those of you who don't know my brother and I are 10 years apart so yes it is possible for me to remember those things. Of course my feelings and emotions about it now are much stronger this time around. Of course I love my brother and I was sad for him to have to go through that...twice. And I remember waiting in the waiting room for the doctor to tell us we could go see him. So pitiful. But being on the mother end of that is something I'm not emotionally prepared for. I know that kids get tubes everyday and these days it's a pretty routine procedure but I'm scared and nervous. I keep telling myself that maybe the ENT will not think he needs them but deep down I see myself as a basket case waiting in the waiting room for the doctor to tell me that my precious baby boy is all done and in recovery. I see people waking up from anesthesia everyday. It doesn't bother me one bit. But when it's my baby I know it will be a different story. It makes me want to cry just thinking about it. Yes I know, man up Tiffany, everything will be fine and God will watch over him every step of the way. But he's my baby and it pains me to know he's in pain. This is one pain I can't kiss away.
On a better note, Logan had a great first day of real preschool. He was super nervous when I dropped him off. He kind of stuck to my side for a bit. We walked through the classroom and he was glad to find a few familiar faces. I stayed with him for a bit until he started to wonder a little further away from my side. I kissed him on the cheek and wished him a good day. He was playing away when I picked him up and his teach said he did wonderful. His best friend Logan Joshua is in his room now and she said the two of them played well together all day. I'm so proud of him. Next thing I know he won't be letting me kiss him goodbye. They just grow up all too fast!
Tonight was a super lazy night. After dinner Lane curled up in my arms and Logan laid down beside me. Lane and I fell asleep while Logan watched some TV. Now we are all laying in bed and ready for a much better day tomorrow.
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