Relay for Life

This weekend was pretty busy. It was Relay for Life weekend. The boys and I had a great time. We went for a little while Friday night but with the rain and cold we left around 8. We went to Walmart and I bought stuff to make caramel apples. The theme this year was Carnival for a Cure so we needed some snacks to sell to raise more money. So I fixed up 30 caramel apples and took them back on Saturday. The boys and I got there at 8 and we stayed til it was over at 6. It was a lot of fun and the boys loved it. Logan got to play a lot of "carnival" games. He won lots of prizes. We also bid on a Stars Wars dress up chest in the silent auction. Logan was so excited and didn't quiet understand the process of the silent auction despite me trying to explain it. We only had to bid twice and thankfully we won. Now he has two storm trooper costumes to play in. The outfits are huge on him but he loves them just the same. Our team...Blackhawk Babes...raised over $6,000 and we won best tent. Our tent was awesome. It was a merry-go-round. Our horses turned out beautiful and each one stood for a different type of cancer. When we got home Saturday night we were all exhausted. We ate dinner and then headed upstairs for baths. Lane had dirt all over him...even in his diaper! We were all in bed and fast asleep before Aaron called at 10:30. I vaguely remember the conversation. Babe...if I sounded out of it...I'm sorry...I was trying to wake up but I was so tired!

One thing I have to share...Saturday morning I got up before the boys. Lane had woke up during the night and I put him in my bed but he was sleeping soundly when I got out of bed. So I take everything out to the car and when I walked back in I had to do a double take. There was Lane standing DOWNSTAIRS just grinning at me. He had gotten out of my bed and came downstairs all by himself. Something his brother doesn't even do all the time. Logan would wake up and call for me until I got him out of bed...even after he was big enough to get out himself. He's only just started getting up by himself. Lane however just helped himself. Logan was upstairs in his bed but Lane just trotted right downstairs. I was shocked. But so glad he made it down safely. Now he's a pro on the stairs...and he just laughs and laughs!


Today we got up...all to early...and headed off to church. After church we headed home for naps. Lane ended up sleeping so late that I had to wake him up to eat dinner. Then we went outside for a bit before we came in to get ready for bed. Now the boys are in bed and I'm about to have come cookie cake and then off to bed myself. Hope you enjoy the pictures.

Some pictures of our tent...

Lane playing in the sand and Logan about to pop a balloon.

Logan with his new Star Wars toy and then fishing in one of the games.

Lane was so tired...just didn't look to comfortable. Logan is munching on a caramel apple.

They fell asleep while we were in the Carl's Jr drive thru...I wondered why it got so quiet back there!!!!

Showing off Aaron's BDU Recon hat. He fixed this one up for me last year for Relay for Life so since we wore the same outfits again...I had to wear this one.

Today was suppose to be a relaxing day for the boys and I. I'm not sure we did much relaxing. My nerves were shot before lunch time. Logan's attitude and listening skills are getting worse by the day. I'm at a loss as to what to do. We had a nice long talk tonight and he always tells me he understands that he "wants to listen" but of course tomorrow is a new day. Even after getting in trouble over and over for going off into the woods he continues to go there. Finally tonight when he went out he stayed where he was suppose to. But the other kids were not out there to get him trouble! I know he just wants to play and have fun but one day he will understand why I'm so "mean!"

We all made it Walmart this afternoon. It looked like it was going to rain all day. And it was cool. Just a blah day. With Logan acting out and Lane trying to grab everything and climb out of the cart I developed a huge headache while we were there. When we left I was debating on just going home and calling it a day or going to Sears just so we could get out of the house. Logan promised to be good so we headed to Sears. I stopped off to get me a coffee. Of course Logan wanted one too but I wasn't even about to consider sharing my espresso with him! I did find him a kid friendly iced "coffee." He was so excited. He kept telling me all the way to Sears, "me and you are drinking our coffees!" We walked around Sears for a while. I can't say Logan was good...but he wasn't terrible! While in Sears a lady was saying hi to the boys. She looks at Lane and asked me if he was a boy or girl. When I said boy she said "I thought so but his hair is long!" I quickly informed her that I agreed but we were waiting for Daddy to get home so that he could be here for his first haircut. She ended up saying that it was sweet that Daddy wanted to be here for the first haircut but I'm pretty sure that after Aaron reads this I will get a phone call telling me to take him for a haircut now. He's already told me to get it cut but we have waited this long...we can hold out one more month. Plus, Lane doesn't care. In fact he loves for me to brush his hair. Today he was bringing me a brush and just standing there while I brushed it. Hahaha!

I started dinner and Logan played outside. I called him in to help me shuck the corn. He had never done it before and was so excited to be helping. I'll turn him into a country boy before it's too late! We only had 3 ears but he wanted more. Since he's been hesitate about moving (he just can't grasp that all our stuff comes with us when we move) I thought this would be a great opportunity to get him excited about moving. I told him that when we move and get our new house that maybe we can have a garden and grow our own corn. Then he will have lots to do! That sounded like a great idea to him. The boys enjoyed their corn. It was the first time Lane had corn on the cob. He figured it all out and enjoyed every bit of it. After bath time I put Lane in bed and Logan came downstairs with me to have some cookie cake. It was so tasty...but I still want a double doozie from the Great American Cookie Company!!! Those are the best!!!!!

Well I'm off to bed.

250 Days!

It has been an exhausting two days. I knew that it would be busy at work...you know kind of a pay back for having Monday off! But geezzz...I didn't know that I would feel like an over-worked mule. I think my body knows I just turned another year older! I feel bad for the other girls...they've still got to do it tomorrow...although with the way the boys are acting tonight...I think I would trade one of them!!! The boys have been WILD tonight. Running and screaming and fighting. It's colder tonight...in the 50s...and it's sprinkling from time to time so they have been stuck inside all day. Maybe it's because I'm tired but my nerves just can't handle anymore. I just put them both in bed. I need a little bit of me time and then I'm going off to bed myself.

Last night both the boys and I were in bed by 8:30. Notice I say "in bed" and not "asleep!" Lane went right to sleep but Logan fought. I read for a little while before getting a phone call from Aaron. He was telling me to get on the webcam. Since Logan was still up (almost and hour and half after put him in bed) I told him to come downstairs with me to chat with Daddy. Logan was excited and so was Aaron. We had a nice chat and Logan got to see his Daddy. That always makes him feel better...and it makes Mommy feel better too!!!! Aaron is doing good. Counting down the days until he leaves to head home. We are too. I just can't wait to have him here. It has been 250 days since I last saw him. My friend shared this quote with me today:

"The test of love is not when we are together. It comes when we are not together and despite the distance, love is still there."

I just felt that it is so true. Everytime Aaron has to be away it always makes me realize just how much I love him and want him in my life. I think sometimes we all take our loved ones for granted but when they are away you realize just how much they mean to you. I told Aaron the other day that he was stuck with me forever...thankfully he said that he was just fine with that. I seriously love that man with all my heart. God blessed me so much the day he brought him into my life and each day with him just gets better and better.

"My heart is jumping, my mind is wandering, and all I can think of is, 'When are you coming home?'"

Here a few more quotes that I just love. Hope you enjoy!

"What I have with him is worth it. It is worth every lonely night, every tear I cry from missing him, and the pain I feel from not having him close. It is worth it because he is my one and only. When I picture myself years from now, I see only him. No matter how painful distance can be, not having him in my life would be worse."

"Missing someone is your heart's way of reminding you that you love them."

"Miles mean nothing when you are in love, and love means everything when your miles apart."

"Love which has been tested by distance and obstacles, and has passed, is true love."

"Absence does for love what the wind does for a flame: it extinguishes the weak, and feeds the strong."

"When two people are meant for each other, no time is too long, no distance is too far, and no one can ever tear them apart."

"The goodbyes are what makes the hellos so wonderful."

Oh me...

Today I was off from work...but today was a more mentally exhausting day 8 hours of straight surgery!!! These boys are giving me a run for my money. I thought it was going to be a great day. They had stayed up late last night so they both slept in this morning. Lane didn't wake me up until 9! That was so nice. Once we all got up and had breakfast we started getting ready for our day. We met up with Amy and the kiddos and did a little running around. The kids were hungry and wanted Pizza Hut so off we go. We should have known better because it was nap time but we did it anyway. And once again it was crazy. Logan has been ignoring everything I say to him for the last little bit. He likes to wait until I'm on my way to spank him before he even starts to do what I tell him. Then of course he says "I'm going mom!" Today at lunch he even smacked my leg back after I had spanked his. I just told him I was going to tell his Daddy. I hate using that and I haven't but I'm at a loss as to what to do now. I've tried spanking and it doesn't do anything. I've tried time out...he still keeps ignoring me. Now I'm trying just sending him to his room to be by himself. But today when he hit me he did not want me to tell his Daddy. Daddy has a big rule about not hitting mom...even when we are play fighting...so he knew he would be in big trouble for that one. He has been begging not to tell.

Now his new thing is running off into the woods around our house. He has a huge backyard to play in and he pretty much has free run but all I ask is that I be able to see him at all time. I tell him he needs to be able to see our front door at all time. I just don't think that is too much ask especially in a populated neighborhood with people constantly walking and cars driving by. In this day and age you can never be too careful. Well he seems to "forget" my rules and ends up out in the woods where I can't see him. Tonight was the final straw. Amy and I were outside letting the little ones jump on the trampoline and the boys wanted to ride their bikes. I told him that was fine but just stay out of the woods. The first place he went was right into the woods...so far back that I couldn't even see his white shirt anywhere. I finally found him and sent him straight in and to his room. We had a little chat after our company left and like always he seems to "get it" then. I don't want to be one of those crazy overprotective moms but I also don't want to have my kids wondering the neighborhood. You never know where crazies might be lurking!

I keep telling myself to just be patient with him. That he just needs to spend a few days with his dad and he will back in line. Sad thing is...it only takes one little word from his dad and he straightens right up. Why can't I do that. I know this sounds gross but I would catch him eating his boogers from time to time. Well I told him and told him to stop but he just kept doing it. So I told Aaron. The two of them had one little chat and he hasn't done it since. What do I need to do different so that I have the same effect. Oh me...kids, kids!!!

Well I'm off to relax for a bit before heading to bed. Logan is fast asleep and I'm about to put Lane down. He had a late nap so that's the only reason he's not sleeping already. I hope you all have enjoyed this holiday weekend. Please take a moment to say a special prayer for all our military. Deployed and home. They give so much to our country and often their sacrifice is forgotten. We live in a time where Hollywood stars are more important than the ones who provide us our freedom. We must not ever forget who the true heroes of this country are. So many have given the ultimate sacriface and that should never be forgotten. God bless all of our soldiers...past and present...your heroism will never be forgotten!!!!! Thank you all!

Also, please say a special prayer for my Grandmother tomorrow. She goes for her second chemo treatment. She has been doing really well after the first. Only a few down days but feeling good for the most part. I spoke with her tonight and she was in good spirits. Laughing and hanging out at my mom's. Her first treatment went really well so we are just praying this one will be just as easy for her. She is such a fighter and never complains. Please keep her in your prayers. Also remember Matthew. He is back home now but still fighting infection in his lungs. Please also remember Pam and Jim. They are doing such a great job taking care of Matthew. Thanks for all your thoughts and prayers!

26 already?????

This morning started off with a sweet birthday phone call from Aaron. Of course it wasn't as nice as having him here to say it but at least hearing happy birthday from him first thing in the morning was the next best thing. Yes that is right, today was my birthday. 26 whole years! Strange how up until you turn 21 you can't wait for your birthday...now it just isn't that exciting anymore!!! LOL! The boys and I headed off to church and then home to have a nap. I told the boys all I wanted for my birthday was for them to be good. Well...they didn't really give me what I wanted...but I enjoyed my time with them just the same.

After our naps we headed to McDonald's with Amy, Logan Joshua, and Abby. The kids played for a while and then it was off to Cold Stone for some birthday ice cream. Lane LOVED the ice cream and couldn't get enough. He was not ready to leave! We then headed home to be lazy. The boys played outside for a while and then Logan headed off to the big playground with the neighbors and I brought Lane in to get ready for bed. This little guy is refusing to lay down! He never stays up this late but right now he's running around wild. Maybe there was a little too much chocolate in his ice cream!!!! Logan had a lot of fun playing and now he's driving his cars on the couch. Overall it's been a good day. Next year my birthday will be awesome...not only will Aaron be around but I will be close to home so I might even get to see my family too!!!!

One more month babe...and you will be here by my side!!!!! I miss you so much!

Scentsy Party

Today has been a lot of fun. The party was a success and I think everyone had a good time...I know I did. The girls brought over some good food and way to much wine. We only opened two bottles and neither of those are gone! I have 5 more bottles just sitting here...unopened! We all feel we will need to have another party sometime soon!!! Everyone LOVED the Scentsy stuff. Some girls had used it before and some were totally new to the stuff. But we all had fun sitting around laughing and munching on the yummy food! The kids of course ran wild. The older boys were outside most of the time and Lane and Abby kept us entertained inside! Here are a few pictures I wanted to share:

Logan actually picked out the flowers...he wanted to give them to his teachers so I figured I would use them for the party and then pass them along!

Two of the cupcakes I made.

Logan is doing his "spiderman pose" and Lane refused to look...but they just look so cute in their little outfits!

And then Logan took a picture of me next to my pretty tulips that Rachel brought me. She is too sweet!

So now the boys and I are sitting around being lazy. They are both so tired and Lane is super fussy. He's not sure if he wants me to hold him or if he just wants to cry!

Yesterday was a busy day. We ran a few errands and even picked the boys up some new tennis shoes. Logan had been wearing some from last year that I were too little but he refused to give them up. So luckily we found new ones that he liked so now he's willing to wear those. He says they are like his Daddy's! Later last night Amy, the kids, and Susan came over and we grilled hot dogs again. The boys ran all their energy out and Logan feel asleep on the couch while everyone was still here.

We had an earthquake last night. Well this morning really. It's the second one I've felt while living here. I woke up at 5:30AM to everything shaking. It's a really weird feeling. There was no damage and it wasn't that bad...it's just strange waking up and your just not sure if your imagining it or if it's really happening. I had to check the internet to be sure. And I was right...there was one right at 5:30AM.

Well I'm going to sit here and cuddle with my little love bugs! Hope you all have a great weekend!

Oh me...I am so tired. Lane was restless last night and then was up bright and early. But Aaron called this morning so I'm glad we were up. Logan went to school today and Lane and I did some shopping. I now have all the food for the Scentsy party. I had a manicure appointment today. I've had a gift certificate for a while now and finally took some time to use it. Now my nails look so pretty!!! And it was free!!!

Amy watched Lane for me while I got the manicure so when I picked him up and we decided to get the big boys and head over to the commissary parking lot for "safety day!" I was so mad I didn't have my camera with me! They had fire trucks, police cars, and ambulance for the kids to look at. Logan is obsessed with all that stuff but he's scared of them at the same time. For some reason he is terrified of policemen and it's not because I threaten him with them. I tell him they are the good guys! So today he wouldn't talk to them but he was giving them the eye. They even offered to let him set in the police truck but he wouldn't budge. How does a kid who wanted to be a SWAT guy for Halloween and also loves to watch cops...get scared when he see a real life police man. I don't get it!

Amy was having a pregnancy craving and wanted Pagota (a local Chinese restaurant) so of course she pulled my leg and I had to go! It never fails that we when we go out to eat with kids out numbering parents that we always question our own sanity! We ate and got out of there as fast as we could. We had all road together so on the way home it was like a dozen little conversations going on at the same time. Logan and Logan were making a ton of noise...Lane and Abby were picking on each other...and some where in all that Amy and I were trying to talk. It was a ruckus! Oh motherhood! You can't help but love it!

We headed back to Amy's for a while and let the kiddos play and get some of the extra energy out! I thought they would both fall asleep on the way home but I was way wrong. Lane had not had more than a 20 minutes nap today but he was a trooper and made it home and still managed to pick on his brother before I put them both in bed. Now they are both sleeping and I'm off to do the same. Tomorrow I'm going to be busy cleaning. I'm such a procrastinator...I'm never going to get this house clean before Saturday!!!

Scentsy, flowers, and more rambling!

I guess I should start by going back to Sunday night. Aaron called really late and informed me that he FINALLY got a leave date. For OPSEC (operational security) reason I'm not going to give the exact date but give or take a few days...I should be seeing my husband in 5 weeks! I can't wait. We are both so ready. By the time I see him it will have been almost 9 1/2 months since our last kiss!

Yesterday was a busy day. Work and school as usual but I left work early to go see my friend's new baby. Her husband was on his way home for R&R but she just couldn't quiet hold out. He was born a little over 24 hours before his daddy arrived. But at least mom and baby are well and now they can enjoy their time together.

This week I am getting things ready for my Scentsy party this weekend. For those of you who don't know what Scentsy is...I must share. This stuff is amazing and Aaron and I LOVE it. Click here to read more about it and order if you want. Just click on My Events and then Tiffany's party and follow the prompts to shop. Believe me, this little thing will become your favorite home decor piece! And your house will smell AMAZING! Below is a picture of the new warmer that I plan to get. But make sure you check out all the others! I'm really looking forward to this weekend mainly because it will be a chance for all of us girls to get together and enjoy some girl time. It's also a wine and hors 'doeuvre party (everyone brings their favorite of each!) to celebrate my birthday so it should be a lot of fun.

I got a beautiful necklace in the mail today from my mom. I love it. I showed Logan and he said said, "they are little boys!" I told him the red was his and the blue was Lane's. He was so excited and kept telling me over and over how pretty my necklace was. I have to agree...it's perfect! Thanks Momma...your the best!I have to share this picture of my plant. There has to be some type of mutation going on with my daisies that I bought. I'm calling it my "Siamese flower!" These "two" flowers share one stem and the buds are fused together. It must be something because another bud is doing the same thing. I'll have to get pictures of it too!

So one last picture...this one was taken at 11:05 on Saturday night. Still bright! We gain daylight so fast that it probably looks like this at midnight now

It's a wonderful day

The boys and I had a great day today. It started early but it was still great. Lane woke up first at 7:30. He and I came downstairs and had breakfast before Logan woke up an hour later. Aaron called and we got to tell him happy birthday. I was so bummed to find out that all my birthday gift had not arrived. I had packed Aaron a birthday party in a box. I made him Cake in a Jar and mailed the boxes to a friend so that he could surprise Aaron with it on his birthday. Well Aaron only got one box and it wasn't the good box. Not the one with cake or any of the good stuff. I was so bummed. Hopefully it will be there soon but he not suppose to get mail for another 2 weeks! Just stinks cause it's not a surprise anymore and it missed his birthday!!!

The first picture is the Cake in the Jar. He loves German chocolate! The second picture is the box he got. Not anything to exciting! But there are some party poppers! And the last picture is the box he's missing. Yes those are water grenades and water guns!!! I thought they would have some fun. I just hope his cake is still good when it gets there. It's sealed but I ruined the surprise because I wanted to make sure he checked the cake before he ate it!!!!

The boys and I lazed around for a bit and then headed upstairs to do some cleaning. Our mission...the playroom. A friend of ours is bringing her 5 year old step son here to live with her. So Logan and I decided to donate a few toys so that he would have stuff to play with when he got here. Logan was so good about it. I was worried he would be a little selfish and not be willing to part with his toys but I was wrong. I was so proud of him. I would hold up a toy and he would say, "ok, I don't play with that anymore" or "I think Austin would like that" even though he doesn't know the little boy!

After cleaning we came downstairs for lunch. Lane fell asleep...And Logan goofed off...excuse the mouth full of Cheetos!I tried to get Logan to take a nap but he laid in his bed for a while and never fell asleep. Finally I just let him up and he took off outside with Wyatt. Wyatt's dad offered to look at Logan's truck. It's been having problems. He got it fixed and the boys road their power wheels for a while. I filled in a few dirt spots and put out some grass seed. And even watered the lawn. Hopefully it works and the grass actually grows! Lane slept, and slept, and slept some more. Until I woke him up at 5:30. We had dinner with the neighbors and then we all went for a walk. Logan road in the wagon and Lane road in this little car. They loved it. When we got back Lane noticed our other neighbors cat. He tried running after it before the cat always runs away. Well tonight the owner was outside and he held the cat so Lane could pet it. He touched it and then latched on to me like the cat was trying to hurt him even thought the cat had not moved! It was kind of funny. Then we had some watermelon. Lane couldn't get enough. He ate every bit he could get and then wanted more. When we finally came in the boys got baths and played while I got mine. They were both so tired and went right to sleep when I laid them down. Now I'm about to head to bed myself. Almost 8 months down!!!!!

This is my little tough guy. He fell face first on the ground and only whimpered a little. But he wouldn't let me brush the dirt off him. He walked around like this for a while! See the dirt on his face!

Happy Birthday Aaron

Today is Aaron's 28th birthday. On May 17, 1981 God blessed this world with the wonderful man who would one day become my husband. I am so thankful. He such an amazing person, husband, father, and friend. He has such a kind, caring heart.

I wish so badly that I could be there (well really that he could be here!) to spend his special day with him but Honey, know that you are in my heart and I'm thinking of you always. You may not be here with us physically but you are here in our hearts and with us in all we do. We think of you constantly and look forward to having you home. Life is just not complete with out you and I truly can't start really living again until I have you back to share my life with you.

You are what makes me whole. You truly complete me. You are strong and courageous, you are tough and outspoken, you are hard working and determined. You are the man that I love and the man I thank God for everyday. I will keep praying for you each day of your life and I will hold tight to the promise that you will be in my arms again.

I love you, I need you, I want you, you are my everything!!!! Always and Forever....

Happy birthday my love!!!!

"I don't care how long he is away from home....as long as he comes home"
Not sure who wrote this quote...but I love it and it's so true!

Busy spring days

The boys and I have had two very busy days. In fact I just opened my computer for the first time since Thursday night! Something that rarely ever happens!!! Yesterday Logan went to school and Lane and I came home and did a little cleaning. I'm having a Scentsy party on the 23rd and since I've had my fair share of Scentsy parties I'm kind of doing this one myself. The lady just brought the testers, catalogs, and order forms over. I'm excited. It's going to be a Scentsy party/birthday party for me! After Lane woke up from his nap we did some running around in town. My check engine light had come on so before we took it into the shop I decided I should jump Aaron's Explorer off in case we needed to leave my car at the shop. When the weather drops to -50 it kills the battery. So his battery has been dead for a while! I have to admit that I was a little nervous. I mean guys do it all the time so it can't be that hard!!!! LOL!!! Just kidding! But it has been 1o years since I have had to do it...and even then it was just because my Daddy told me that part of being a responsible driving was also knowing how to change a tire and jump my car off. Well I learn but thankfully I've never had to put my skills to work!!! But I did it. I was so proud. The Explorer now runs perfectly. When I took the Durango in they hooked it up and ran the check. Everything was fine. He explained what the code meant but he said not to worry about it. He reset everything and sent me on my way...free of charge!

Lane and I then went off to the commissary. Then we picked up Logan and headed home to get ready for our company. We were having a few friends over (Amy, the kiddos, and Susan) and we were firing up the grill for the first time this year and grilling some hot dogs. We had all been talking about chili dogs so we had to give into our cravings! It was delicious. I have to admit I'm a pretty good grill cook...even if it is just hot dogs!!! At least I got the thing lit! (We have a charcoal grill) The kids played and played. We eventually came inside and we girls got to chat and have some girl time. The little ones started getting really tired so everyone headed home around 10 and the boys and I headed off to bed.

We got up around 8 this morning and got ready for our day. The boys went to daycare...they offer free daycare to deployed spouses one Saturday a month. I've always missed the cut off day to sign them up but I finally got it this month. Today was the first complete OFF day I've had since Aaron left. I was almost lost as to what to do with myself. It was the post wide yard sale so I drove around trying to find anything worth looking at. Found nothing. I was bummed. I wasted too much time doing that. I ended up meeting up with Amy and having lunch at Taco Bell and then we headed to Walmart. I found a new bedspread that was at such a great price I couldn't pass it up. Bedding for a king size bed is NEVER cheap and this was really cheap! I know Aaron is saying why in the world do we need a new bedspread...but this one will be for spring/summer. It's blues and browns and I just like to change things up from time to time.

I headed off on my own again in search of a place to get a pedicure. Everywhere was full but I finally got one. It was nice and my toes look super cute. They were in need of pampering. By the time that was done it was almost time to get the boys so I picked them up a little early. It was really nice to "get away" but it was so nice to see their smiles too. They both had good days and Lane was being such a big boy when I picked him up. I asked him if he had a good day and he nodded yes. We headed home to a cookout the neighbors were having. Logan had a bunch of friends to play with and Lane messed with everything. We finally headed in around 9:30 after Logan fell on his arm (yes the broken collarbone). I swear I (and he) can't win! He is fine and his arm looks ok and he says it feels better now. He is so tired right now but is fighting with all he's got left to stay awake. Lane has already been sleeping but he woke up...of course right before Logan fell so I was stuck trying to comfort both screaming boys at the same time. He sat downstairs for a while and was just so whinny so I put in him bed. He's just not sleeping very soundly. I have a feeling both boys will end up in my bed tonight. Hopefully they will sleep late though...but that never happens when I need it too!!!!

I got the sweetest phone call this morning from Aaron. Thankfully I finally woke up enough to answer it. In my sleep I heard it ringing but I couldn't get my body to move to answer the phone. He normally doesn't call when he knows I'm sleeping but from what he said that was the only free time he had. So sleep or no sleep...I want him to call!

Lane didn't sleep well at all last night. He was in my bed when Aaron called and had been for a while. When Lane sleeps with me he likes to cuddle. I however can not sleep well like that. So needless to say I was still sleepy when the boys woke up this morning. We sat around all day. Logan did go out for a little while to play with Wyatt. This afternoon we headed off to the FRG meeting. The boys had fun playing. I wore a pair of my new heels so Lane took full advantage of the fact that I could not run. He tried escaping more times than I could count and every time I would catch him he would just laugh and laugh. The meeting went good and we ladies got to have a little chatty time. We have a lot of things coming up with the FRG since we are working on fundraisers to raise money for when the guys get home. There will be a huge ball for everyone in November. I of course always look forward to all the military balls. Aaron always tries to talk me out of going but that's not happening. I love getting all dressed up and wearing a beautiful ball gown. Aaron would never admit it but I think he enjoys them too! And he looks super sexy in his Dress Blues!!!

This picture was taken after the last ball we went too. I was 28 weeks pregnant with Lane and already enormous! I had shaved Aaron's head a week or two before the ball. I don't remember why but I'm sure it was for some field exercise or something. It was our Christmas ball...hence the wrapping paper in the background!!Well I am off to bed. Aaron said he might call again early in the morning so I better get some rest before then!

Moody boys and Sunlight!!!

Yesterday morning I got up early and talked to Aaron for a bit. I had sent him some photos of a house that I fell in love with. He liked it too! I just can't wait to get moved and really start the house search. I know some people hate moving and I admit it does get stressful. But I kind of enjoy moving and not just because I'm getting closer to home. Every time we move I get a chance to go through everything and throw away a lot of junk. Plus I get to decorate. I have learned so much when it comes to looking for what I want in a house. When you've lived in as many houses as I have...I'm counting at least 10 places since the age of 18!...you get to really know what you like and don't like. I know that I WILL have walk in closets. There is no way around it!!! The boys have to have a place for their toys. I need a large living room and the kitchen has to be amazing! I can not live in a cluttered house any more! Me...picky???? Who would think that?!?!?!?


Logan woke up this morning with a chip on his shoulder. I'm not sure why but he has been down right rude all day. When we got home we ate and then went outside. The neighbors were out so Logan got to play with Wyatt. They played well together for a while but then Logan's attitude came back. He was just being so rude. I just couldn't figure out what his problem was. He ended up with a pop on the butt and some sit down time. He finally straightened up a little but now he is fast asleep. Hopefully that chip is gone tomorrow! His collarbone seems to be doing well. He still has a large knot there but he says it doesn't hurt. I take his sling off at night and he moves his arm around some. Tonight he was playing with some cars on the couch and had his arm lifted. He said he didn't hurt so I guess that's good. I just really hope that knot goes down.



I think Lane is cutting his eye teeth (canines). The sitter said that he was good today but really clingy. She said that he would be playing and then just start crying. He played good outside and seemed to be in a good mood. I checked his gums and he did not like me touching them. So I gave him some Motrin before bed and he seemed a lot more relaxed when he went to bed. Poor boy just can't get much of a break from his teething. He seems to get at least two at a time so if things go like the other times he will either have 14 teeth or 16 teeth in the next few weeks! I think Logan MIGHT have had 8 at this age!



For those of you who have never experienced an Alaska summer I have to tell you it's amazing. If you ever get the chance to come here during the month of June you should! It's is beautiful and there is 24 hours of daylight! Might sounds strange and it does take getting used to. It is VERY easy to stay up to late and then pay for it in the morning. It's really hard to feel tired when it's still as bright as noon at midnight! Right now it starts getting dark around 11 or 11:30. I LOVE all this sunlight. It just brings on a whole new mood. And who doesn't love cruising around with the windows down, the sun on your face, all while wearing some hot little shades!!! Over the next few weeks I'm going to post some pictures to show you just how much sunlight we get. Tonight's picture was taken at 10:05 PM with no flash. The camera's flash was set to auto but it was too bright to even need it. I'm so tired so I'm heading to bed tonight but tomorrow night maybe I'll stay up a little later and can get another picture. See you then!

The Invisible Mom

I have to admit I've felt a little invisible from time to time. Even though I don't do stuff for my family looking for some special recognition but sometimes do feel the like the special things I do are a little more expected than appreciated. This was just touching and so true. I am building a catherdral...and the only reward I need is their precious little smiles!

It all began to make sense: the blank stares, the lack of response, the way one of the kids will walk into the room while I'm on the phone and ask to be taken to the store. Inside I'm thinking, "Can't you see I'm on thephone?" Obviously, not. No one can see if I'm on the phone, or cooking, or sweeping the floor,or even standing on my head in the corner, because no one can see me at all. I'm invisible. The Invisible Mom.

Some days I am only a pair of hands,nothing more: Can you fix this? Can you tie this? Can you open this? Some days I'm not a pair of hands; I'm not even a human being. I'm a clock to ask, "What time is it?" I'm a satellite guide to answer, "What number is the Disney Channel?" I'm a car to order, "Right around 5:30, please."

One night, a group of us were having dinner, celebrating the return of a friend from England. Janice had just gotten back from a fabulous trip, and she was going on and on about the hotel she stayed in. I was sitting there, looking around at the others all put together so well. It was hard not to compare and feel sorry for myself. I was feeling pretty pathetic, when Janice turned to me with a beautifully wrapped package, and said, "I brought you this." It was a book on the great cathedrals of Europe . I wasn't exactly sure why she'd given it to me until I read her inscription: "To Charlotte, with admiration for the greatness of what you are building when no one sees." In the days ahead I would read - no, devour - the book. And I would discover what would become for me, four life-changing truths, after which I could pattern my work: No one can say who built the great cathedrals - we have no record of their names. These builders gave their whole lives for a work they would never see finished. They made great sacrifices and expected no credit. The passion of their building was fueled by their faith that the eyes of God saw everything. A legendary story in the book told of a rich man who came to visit the cathedral while it was being built, and he saw a workman carving a tiny bird on the inside of a beam. He was puzzled and asked the man, "Why are you spending so much time carving that bird into a beam that will be covered by the roof? No one will ever see it." And the workman replied, "Because God sees." I closed the book, feeling the missing piece fall into place. It was almost as if I heard God whispering to me, "I see you, Charlotte. I see the sacrifices you make every day, even when no one around you does. No act of kindness you've done, no sequin you've sewn on, no cupcake you've baked, is too small for me to notice and smile over. You are building a great cathedral, but you can't see right now what it will become."

At times, my invisibility feels like an affliction. But it is not a disease that is erasing my life. It is the cure for the disease of my own self-centeredness. It is the antidote to my strong, stubborn pride. I keep the right perspective when I see myself as a great builder. As one of the people who show up at a job that they will never see finished, to work on something that their name will never be on. The writer of the book went so far as to say that no cathedrals could ever be built in our lifetime because there are so few people willing to sacrifice to that degree. When I really think about it, I don't want my daughter to tell the friend she's bringing home from college for Thanksgiving, "My mom gets up at 4 in the morning and bakes homemade pies, and then she hand bastes a turkey for three hours and presses all the linens for the table." That would mean I'd built a shrine or a monument to myself. I just want her to want to come home. And then, if there is anything more to say to her friend, to add,"You're gonna love it there."

As mothers, we are building great cathedrals. We cannot see if we're doing it right. And one day, it is very possible that the world will marvel, not only at what we have built, but at the beauty that has been added to the world by the sacrifices of invisible women.

Great Job, MOM

Share this with all the Invisible Moms you know... Hope this encourages you when the going gets tough as it sometimes does. We never know what our finished products will turn out to be because of our perseverance.

Houses and a flower

I've done something bad tonight...real bad...I've been looking at houses online. And not just rental houses...houses to buy. Now I know that it's really not the most sane idea for Aaron and I to buy a house because if plans go accordingly Aaron is planning to get out of the Army only 1 1/2 year after we move there. So the logical thing to do is what we have always done...rent. But looking at rental houses compared to the houses that are for sale...starts a fever inside me...a fever that says I want to OWN a house. I know it's just a phase...well maybe not a phase but something I can live without...but at moments like these I don't want to! I'm sure the big decision will come when we get to Campbell and start looking at what is available. If the price is right I think both of us will lean towards buying. We both would love to have our own home...that we are completely proud of! I think next to being close to our families...the thing we are most excited about is getting a house that we really love.

I LOVE to decorate and could spend every spare penny we have on buying stuff for my house...of course Aaron doesn't like that idea. He would like to spend it on hunting equipment and ATVs! To look at my house now though you would never think that I enjoy decorating...but I promise I do and with the right house...I could make it everything that I see in my head! Ok, now I'm positive I'm watching to much HGTV.

Today I got another Mother's Day present. Mr. Logan had created me something at school and since he did not go on Thursday or Friday he didn't get to give it to me. It was waiting on me when I picked him up today. He had made me this beautiful card with a butterfly cut out on it and even PLANTED me a flower. I guess a while back they planted a seed so he actually grew me a flower for Mother's Day. Now I really need Aaron here to keep it alive. I have more of a brown thumb than a green one. Aaron on the other hand can keep any plant alive. He has some that are living with my mom now since we couldn't move them with us. He still...almost three years later...asks her about them. I know he will be excited to get them back.

Isn't this just the cutest thing ever!Well I just laid the boys down and finally I hear quietness...so I'm off to get myself ready for bed and then enjoy a little relaxation time. Then it's off to bed. I woke up an hour early this morning thinking I would get to talk to Aaron but he wasn't online. I had a message from him later today saying that he was sorry and had been super busy and unable to chat. I was bummed...but I understand. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. So honey if your reading this...I'll meet you early in the morning...or late at night for you!!!! So sad that will be the last day of our "scheduled" time. But only about 40 more days till I'm in his arms!!!!!

Happy Mother's Day

I want to start off by telling my mom how blessed I am to be her daughter. Next to Aaron, my mom is my best friend. I never quite understood as a child why my mother did the things she did and made me do the things she did but now that I am older and a mother myself I completely understand and have a great appreciation for the way she raised me. I can not thank her enough for the religious background she raised me in. I may not of always been willing to go but she took me anyway. She is such a kind and caring person. She has always put me and my brother ahead of herself. She is completely selfless and I can only wish to be half of what she is. When I introduced Aaron into her life she was completely accepting and she believed in me when everyone else thought I was crazy. She has loved Aaron as her own son which is something that means more to me than she will ever know.

When it comes to her grand kids...you couldn't ask for a better Grammy. She loves those boys so very much. During my first pregnancy my mom and I became closer than I ever thought possible. She was there when I had all those crazy questions and helped me through those hormonal moments. And now, even though I am 4500 miles away, we still talk almost daily. She always has time to hear about day or hang on the phone while I'm getting on to the boys. And she is completely understanding when I have to ask her to repeat what she just said 3 times because little ones always need something the moment you get on the phone! Thank you mom for always being you! I love you so very much!

After having Logan I realized something you can't understand until it happens to you. In one split second I felt what my mother had always felt for me. The love you have for your kids is the most pure and innocent love there is. There is nothing on earth you would not do for them no matter what they do or say. No matter how mouthy they get there is nothing they can do that can not be erased with a little hug and an "I love you, Mommy." My little boys melt my heart everyday. Even through the moments when I am about to pull my hair out it only takes one little smile for my whole mood to change. I can not begin to say how thankful I am for those two precious babies. They are the perfect combination of Aaron and I. I am so completely in love with my family and I thank God everyday for the blessings he has given me. I have truly been blessed beyond anything I deserve.

Happy Mother's Day to all you other mothers out there.

This picture was taken in the airport that last time I saw my mom...in August 08...so we are both fighting back tears!

One of the happiest days of my life...the day I met my sweet little Laner Bug.

Remember when I said you love them no matter what...who knew this started so early...I love every aspect of being a mom!!!! This picture was taken the day before Aaron deployed.

Randomness

The boys slept late this morning...it was so nice. Logan woke up at 8 but was content watching some cartoons while I continued to sleep. Lane didn't wake up til 9...I was completely shocked! We had breakfast and then called Daddy on the computer...you have no idea how neat it is actually be able to call him. I haven't been able to do that in almost 8 months! The boys were excited to see him. He was super busy though so we didn't get to talk much. When he called us back a little later our connection was horrible and we kept getting disconnected. It gets so frustrating when your trying to talk and every other word is "can you hear me now?" We ended up getting disconnected and I'm guessing their phones and internet went out because he would have called to say goodbye if he could have. However I was on the computer with him when my doorbell rang. I had a flower delivery! Happy Mother's Day to me!!!! They are so beautiful...thank you babe!

After taking pictures of the flowers I just started snapping random pictures. This is Mr. Charles II....our miracle beta!

And of course wild man Lane!

Notice his hair...when he walks across my couch the static is horrible. He always shocks me so bad after he does this. His hair was just to funny not to share. It was standing straight up. The poor boy needs a haircut so badly! We are trying to wait until Aaron gets home to get his first haircut. He better hurry...this hair is getting crazy!!!!!
The rest of our day was pretty blah! We cleaned up outside though it's still not done yet. I'm going to put down some fresh dirt and plan some grass seed. There is just some dirt spots and holes that are driving me nuts. Once that is done and grass starts growing I will be able to move some of the stuff off the porch and make it look more organized. My goal is to have some pretty green grass by the time Aaron gets home! After we ate our yummy dinner that even the boys enjoyed Logan headed back outside to play with Wyatt. They literally ran for hours! He just walked in and his nose and hand feel like an ice cube! Lane has been cuddling with me on the couch for the past two hours. I love my lovey boys...they keep me going that's for sure!!!!

Urgent Prayer for Matthew

I just got word that Matthew has been admitted back into ICU. He has been diagnosised with pseudomonas (a bacteria which is kind of antibiotic resistant) which he had last year and had a very hard time with it. Currently his heart rate is way up and his oxygen levels are way low. Please take a moment and lift his name up. His poor body is so tired but we know God still works miracles. Please keep Pam and Jim in your prayers. This trip to the hospital has been really hard on them and they have not gotten much sleep. Please also pray for the medical staff and the doctors. Thank you so much!

The boys and I had a webcam visit with Aaron for a while this morning. He is on MWR guard so he has a little more time to be on the computer. We get to do it tomorrow too...I'm so excited!!!! Logan had a doctor's appointment today. He got another round of xrays. He did so good this time. The tech let him stand and he was perfectly still. I was so proud of him. The doctor was pleased with his healing. He said the bone had already started to straighten out. So now we just keep it wrapped and waiting for it to heal some more.

Lane stayed with Heather during Logan's appointment so when we picked him up we stayed there for a bit. After that we were off to Walmart. Logan picked out a flower for outside so we brought two little ones home to decorate the porch. You just can't have summer without a few flowers. We also picked up an electric fly swatter! Let me tell you that thing is pretty neat. It's kind of like a hand held bug zapper! In case you don't know...Alaska's state bird is the mosquito!!! LOL! I'm telling you those things are huge! Logan and I had some fun with that thing when we got home...haha! Watch out bugs...we are armed and dangerous!!!!!

Of course Logan ran outside to play as soon as we got home. The neighbors were out so he played with them while poor Lane was stuck inside with mom while I cooked dinner. We had my tasty Thai Curry Turkey Burgers! They are so good...Logan will even eat them. Lane however made this awful face followed by a shiver when he tasted them. So much for cooking a tasty dinner! We all headed outside after dinner and the boys played and played. We got the truck and 4-wheeler out. Lane figured out how to slide down the slide. He was scaring me even though it was only about 3 feet high. He would climb up the latter and stand on the top. He would just giggle and then finally as I started to get him down he would sit down and slide. Landing right on his butt...but again he would just laugh! It was so cute!

By the time we came in both boys were super tired. Lane fell asleep in my arms after only sitting here for about 2 minutes. Logan is now sleeping on the couch. He was trying to stay awake to watch Flashpoint with me but he didn't last. Poor boy just played to hard. Well I'm going to bed as soon as this is off. I want to get up early so I will be ready to chat with Aaron. Talk to you soon babe!!!!